Lay in my bed tonight
Unable to sleep though has forcing myself to
Just thinking about ‘you’ and wonder…
if maybe you are lying in your bed
unable to sleep
and thinking about me
Leaving
We both so happy before and I never thought the day will coming,
The day when I am finally have strength to leave you and moving on with someone new,
I hope our ending will not hurt any one of us but I’d see you in tears and I live in hesitation,
Never in mind to leave you because of another person but things happen unexpected
It sad for me to see you cry but that’s how everyone normally do after a breakup,
me, myself even drain in tears that night,
I have to leave a person who before mean the world to me,
and now only some good memories to keep that will never get to create back.
– falyssum
Let it go
I never been the best at letting go
and I’m sorry but I’ve to
I already knew everything
and It’s really broke my heart
to know that you have someone else
I expect that everything will be better
but unfortunately it getting worst day by day
and I just realized my love for you is just a game
Since in the beginning I choose to stay
and wait for you even it take a few years
but it is the pain I get in return
You teach me how to love
but at the end…
I’ve forced to let this love go.
–falyssum
Lost
Night, cold and alone,
I read our conversations
I look at our pictures, videos and even your voices that you sent
I laughed when remembering a jokes we make together
But I start to cry when you’re not here beside me right now
and maybe forever…
Azure
Photo by falyssum
Sometimes during the day,
Stars still appeared on the sky.
Until it meet a night,
and show the bright.
Just like me still hoping to shine,
Even my life bring me into the dark.
Beyond Happiness
Smile and laugh become harder.Try to give people around happy and also itself.
.
But beyond the smile face, there is something that been hide.
Something that no one would ever know about.
.
Might be there were a sadness that can’t be explain.
But pretend to keep it beyond the happiness.
–falyssum
A text
Sometimes she look at him from a far,
And she know she had a feelings toward him,
But she never try to talk even reply his text.
Maybe she scared to love and be loved…
Some fine day,
She read back a text that he sent and asking a question,
“Haven’t sleep yet ?”
That’s not a priority to know,
But she don’t know why she want to.
And the time past by…
She never think he will be the one of her favourite text in the morning.
She never think he will be the one she ever love the most.
And for the first time she felt so appreciate by man.
And she scared if she lose him because of a text from others…
Because they also start from a text.
–falyssum
p/s: I’m not post anything for nearly 2 months and now I have no idea what to write but this is just a warm up and I hope I’ll make my poetry better after this ♥
Forgetting
I try to forget about you,
Because I feel like I’m not happy with you,
But there is something occurred that will remind me of you once I try to…
And it’s make me to miss you even more.
-falyssum
Run from my past
I still can’t get it out of my brain,
Whatever I am doing it will suddenly appear…
Maybe it will becomes my nightmare soon.
And yes… It will!!
I don’t know how to explain when everything heal one day.
Maybe I’ll leave…
I don’t want to answer any of them because I hate QUESTION !
They don’t understand me and even my situation.
But they said they want to help me.
They just want to care about me…
But the way they did were wrong.
It doesn’t help and I don’t want a sympathy.
I just need they to stop talk about my past!
I don’t want it ruin my future and also my life!
Because think about my past it will bring me to cry.
And yes!!! I’ll gonna start to cry…
-falyssum
Place and memories
10:00 p.m.
When remembering our memories it will suddenly bring me to smile.
Because I realized how happy I am for having you in my life.
But at the same times it broke my heart when I know we will never getting back together.
And only just the memory we could keep holding to forever.
-falyssum
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