Run from my past

I still can’t get it out of my brain,
Whatever I am doing it will suddenly appear…
Maybe it will becomes my nightmare soon.
And yes… It will!!

I don’t know how to explain when everything heal one day.
Maybe I’ll leave…
I don’t want to answer any of them because I hate QUESTION !
They don’t understand me and even my situation.

But they said they want to help me.
They just want to care about me…
But the way they did were wrong.
It doesn’t help and I don’t want a sympathy.

I just need they to stop talk about my past!
I don’t want it ruin my future and also my life!
Because think about my past it will bring me to cry.
And yes!!! I’ll gonna start to cry…



Place and memories

10:00 p.m.

When remembering our memories it will suddenly bring me to smile.
Because I realized how happy I am for having you in my life.
But at the same times it broke my heart when I know we will never getting back together.
And only just the memory we could keep holding to forever.


It’s a lie

we think our love will always expand
we keep believing about our loyalty
we promise to it even just a friend

when we need to accept our destiny

slowly fade when we meet a new one
hard to know we cannot be together
End up
we be a stranger then.

It’s a lie when a lover will only can stay as friend after their significant meet a new one because feelings is something can’t be confirm so they end up by forgetting each other for awhile.


Why we broke up? 

It’s been so much time we had spent together…
You bought me whatever I want.
And we promise to stay forever even we know we just meant to be friend then.
We didn’t lie about feelings because we know we love each other since at our first sight

We act like a couple and bestfriend instead.
But when I get sad… You left and said I just need more rest even I only want you to calm me..
but you don’t.?!


When I ask you to make me happy and you just reply you don’t know how?!
Maybe I’ve been hurt so much until I can’t even feel it has broke me.

It’s hard for me to leave you but I’ve to.
I don’t want to burden you all the time because I just want an attention when I feel down rather than any stuff or gift you gave.
But you never care my feelings so I’d try slowly to stop loving you more than I should by distance myself from you.

And we end our relationship without a proper goodbye 💔


What are you really afraid of ?

What the future will bring to us?
What will happen to the world?
And to the person we are close to?

How to believe everything will still in the same even any few things now is slowly change through a times and day without us realizing?

And how about it will be a big changer soon?

A lack of healthy slowly kill our life,
Lose somebody we love,
Economy’s problem etc…

Have we think about it?
Is it we will get ready to through it?

So what are the things are you really afraid of beside than a future?