What the future will bring to us?
What will happen to the world?
And to the person we are close to?
How to believe everything will still in the same even any few things now is slowly change through a times and day without us realizing?
And how about it will be a big changer soon?
A lack of healthy slowly kill our life,
Lose somebody we love,
Economy’s problem etc…
Have we think about it?
Is it we will get ready to through it?
So what are the things are you really afraid of beside than a future?
We know there never perfect.
But we still want a perfection.
Through every daily life and wish to be happy.
But in every happiness always end by a sadness.
Nothing to be regrets nor hates.
But just appreciates that.
Until now I can’t expect how could I meet you and we have been so long together in this relationship through ups and down.
Honestly I feel so lucky for having a boy like you. You’re different than other boys I ever met before. I don’t know how could you can still want to be friend with me even when I said I don’t want you again in my life.
I’m sorry for being rude sometimes when my mind can’t control my emotions. I just hope you know and believe that I really love you. It’s hard to let you go because I don’t want other girl get your love and attention I’d when I was with you.
And if today is your last day to be with me either you gone nor a destiny separate us I wish I will meet you soon in paradise. I don’t know if I would meet somebody like you again when I lose you in my life.
Thanks for everything love 💘
Hug and kiss ❤
I hate my life…
But I love myself.
Life has put me on position that I can’t actually bear…
But myself still convince that I can through all of that.
-Tidy up new room-
Anyway I’m glad for tidy up my room and arrange everything because I love for staying in my room and doing anything without pressure. I’d make a spot to make a videos meanwhile I love for making video in every single day and I do not know if I should have my personal YouTube channel or not lol.
Honestly I like for being famous. I do had enrolled myself to be a freelance model and yeah I did but I don’t like to lol. For my opinion,just being a model and acting doesn’t give an inspiration for everyone because I prefer if somebody know me because of I’m a novellis or an artists rather than a acting.I hate acting because it fake in everything but in writing and drawing or even singing sometimes we describe what we feel.
Before that I said I hate for having my new life at a new house and city that I never thought for staying, but as I’ve realized maybe this changers will make my life more happier soon ? When I slowly accept my destiny and gratitude, I know that God will give me more abundance that I’ll never expect to have. Sometimes when we sad we must put a limit. Last but not least,for all of the religion don’t ever forget to pray and be thankful to your God. Without Him we are nothing in this life.
The key to be happy is choosing to be happy.
I’d tidy up my bookshelves and put all of the books and using stuff in the boxes.While chose what stuff to be take or throw I’d see something that make me remind of somebody and the memories suddenly appeared in my mind.That was another years ago in my boarding school I’d always been surprise from my close friend such as they give me a letter,memo and even my notebook they have wrote about anything they want to share.
I really miss that memories and don’t know if I will having that again. I’m glad I still keep the letters they gave even if it not an expensive things to keep but that was priceless. I read it while in sad and wonder,how fast the times past and make me doesn’t realized how can I create so much memory with them?
I hope we can still stay forever but it is impossible and that’s make me disappointed. And what I’ve learn is we should appreciate the people who came and the times we spent because one day we will regrets if just ignore. And even everyday we having a same routine but we always having a different memory and lesson too.
Learn how to appreciate a little things because it will be something important if we lose it.
-Transfer to a new house-
I don’t know what kind of feelings when I’ve to stay to another house that far away from a city that I’d live in before.But something make me shook is, it was near to my last year school and my ex schoolmates house.
I don’t know if I should be happy nor sad and it seems like a pray from my close friend has been fulfilled because they were always disputed why am I live far away from their house and that bring them a disappointed.
But I’m not ready to tell them about it and I don’t even know why? My life is slowly change and I lost everything. Now I’ll be a new person and having a new life there. And there is no clue what will happen to me in 5 years from now.
There is always have a bad weather after the sky becomes fine.