My life is going to change.

-Tidy up new room-

Anyway I’m glad for tidy up my room and arrange everything because I love for staying in my room and doing anything without pressure. I’d make a spot to make a videos meanwhile I love for making video in every single day and I do not know if I should have my personal YouTube channel or not lol.

Honestly I like for being famous. I do had enrolled myself to be a freelance model and yeah I did but I don’t like to lol. For my opinion,just being a model and acting doesn’t give an inspiration for everyone because I prefer if somebody know me because of I’m a novellis or an artists rather than a acting.I hate acting because it fake in everything but in writing and drawing or even singing sometimes we describe what we feel.

Before that I said I hate for having my new life at a new house and city that I never thought for staying, but as I’ve realized maybe this changers will make my life more happier soon ? When I slowly accept my destiny and gratitude, I know that God will give me more abundance that I’ll never expect to have. Sometimes when we sad we must put a limit. Last but not least,for all of the religion don’t ever forget to pray and be thankful to your God. Without Him we are nothing in this life.

The key to be happy is choosing to be happy.

My life is going to change.

-Packaging stuff-

I’d tidy up my bookshelves and put all of the books and using stuff in the boxes.While chose what stuff to be take or throw I’d see something that make me remind of somebody and the memories suddenly appeared in my mind.That was another years ago in my boarding school I’d always been surprise from my close friend such as they give me a letter,memo and even my notebook they have wrote about anything they want to share.

I really miss that memories and don’t know if I will having that again. I’m glad I still keep the letters they gave even if it not an expensive things to keep but that was priceless. I read it while in sad and wonder,how fast the times past and make me doesn’t realized how can I create so much memory with them?

I hope we can still stay forever but it is impossible and that’s make me disappointed. And what I’ve learn is we should appreciate the people who came and the times we spent because one day we will regrets if just ignore. And even everyday we having a same routine but we always having a different memory and lesson too.

Learn how to appreciate a little things because it will be something important if we lose it.

My life is going to change.

-Transfer to a new house-

I don’t know what kind of feelings when I’ve to stay to another house that far away from a city that I’d live in before.But something make me shook is, it was near to my last year school and my ex schoolmates house.

I don’t know if I should be happy nor sad and it seems like a pray from my close friend has been fulfilled because they were always disputed why am I live far away from their house and that bring them a disappointed.

But I’m not ready to tell them about it and I don’t even know why? My life is slowly change and I lost everything. Now I’ll be a new person and having a new life there. And there is no clue what will happen to me in 5 years from now.

There is always have a bad weather after the sky becomes fine.

Unsure feelings.

And the time past..
The day change..
While everything becomes different.

But I still wait and wait even if it never happen…
Still wondering why but don’t know why too.
Maybe I need to stop.
Until it will come by their own.

I hate this situation but I’ve to through.
My world feel empty..
Lose everything and everyone.
They lost without reasons and full of mystery.

I’ve a hope..
But not expectation.
And I hope everything will be back to normal.

Hidden of a sadness. 

They’re shook we are still together,
They expected we are happy forever,
Then they respected when we never cheat each other..

But they wrong !
They doesn’t know when our relationship barely broke,
They doesn’t know my painful heart when you crooked,
They never know because I never showed.

Staying hide the sadness doesn’t meant hypocrite,
But don’t want to make them worried.