I try to forget about you,
Because I feel like I’m not happy with you,
But there is something occurred that will remind me of you once I try to…
And it’s make me to miss you even more.
Smile and laugh become harder.
Try to give people around happy and also itself.
But beyond the smile face, there is something that been hide.
Something that no one would ever know about.
Might be there were a sadness that can’t be explain.
But pretend to keep it beyond the happiness.
I still can’t get it out of my brain,
Whatever I am doing it will suddenly appear…
Maybe it will becomes my nightmare soon.
And yes… It will!!
I don’t know how to explain when everything heal one day.
Maybe I’ll leave…
I don’t want to answer any of them because I hate
They don’t understand me and even my situation.
But they said they want to help me.
They just want to care about me…
But the way they did were wrong.
It doesn’t help and I don’t want a sympathy.
I just need they to stop talk about my past!
I don’t want it ruin my future and also my life!
Because think about my past it will bring me to cry.
And yes!!! I’ll gonna start to cry…
we think our love will always expand
we keep believing about our loyalty
we promise to it even just a friend
when we need to accept our destiny
slowly fade when we meet a new one
hard to know we cannot be together
we be a stranger then.
It’s a lie when a lover will only can stay as friend after their significant meet a new one because feelings is something can’t be confirm so they end up by forgetting each other for awhile.
What the future will bring to us?
What will happen to the world?
And to the person we are close to?
How to believe everything will still in the same even any few things now is slowly change through a times and day without us realizing?
And how about it will be a big changer soon?
A lack of healthy slowly kill our life,
Lose somebody we love,
Economy’s problem etc…
Have we think about it?
Is it we will get ready to through it?
So what are the things are you really afraid of beside than a future?
And the time past..
The day change..
While everything becomes different.
But I still wait and wait even if it never happen…
Still wondering why but don’t know why too.
Maybe I need to stop.
Until it will come by their own.
I hate this situation but I’ve to through.
My world feel empty..
Lose everything and everyone.
They lost without reasons and full of mystery.
I’ve a hope..
But not expectation.
And I hope everything will be back to normal.
They’re shook we are still together,
They expected we are happy forever,
Then they respected when we never cheat each other..
But they wrong !
They doesn’t know when our relationship barely broke,
They doesn’t know my painful heart when you crooked,
They never know because I never showed.
Staying hide the sadness doesn’t meant hypocrite,
But don’t want to make them worried.